Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Busy, Exciting, Not, Busy, Not, Exciting. I Dont Know

This month is crazy. April is also crazy. Too many things happening, all supposedly good stuff. But I am too busy and having too many thoughts in my mind that I kinda dont have enough voltage to run all the appliances at the same time. Fused. Bzzz.

In a few more days I will be married. Ya I know I never mentioned a bit about it in this blog. Well its because i am having mixed feelings about it. Bitter sweet, I dont know its more bitter or sweet. At times I cry thinking about it. At times I feel blessed that at least on long term I am taken care of. I get sick and a little pissed when people keep harping about my wedding because I am just not the kind of person who likes to be paparazzied. Bah.

At the same time I will be moving out into the new condo. Pretty excited about that, coz its much nearer to work and I can wake up later and still get to work on time. Having a place of my own means I can furnish it as I want and keep stock of all the food that I like. But the bad side is, well, I have to clean the place because WIFE means washing, ironing, f*cking and entertainment.

I wish the first week of April can be fast forwarded and life can resume to normal.

Not to mention that there's the stupid quality audit that is coming just in the middle of April. Told my boss the department just dont have time to prepare for it so sepakat that we are going to ignore the audit altogether and get all the NCRs so that the bigger boss will know that he is being unreasonable to ask us for so much. Lucky my boss is more senior that the 'bigger boss' or else I dont know how to juggle current work, audit AND personal life.

But there are exciting things to look forward to this April. Mostly photoshoots. Yeah, I cant wait to get back on my feet to shoot! I got a used FE2 recently, and started to build my arsenal of films, chemicals and other stuff. It's gonna be exciting! I will blog about my new film fever soon, when things have settled a little. And the finances, too, so I can buy a scanner. Haha.

My sister has requested to shoot her casual pre-wedding shoot and the tentative place is PD, on tentatively end of April. I am so looking forward for it! I have been wanting to do couple shoots, but just couldnt find any volunteers. Its gonna be fun! I am looking at the works of Jessica Claire and hope to be inspired by her works. I hope the then-hubby will be able to assist as my flashgun holder. Haha.

Hm, what else. May will come soon. Sister's wedding. I will be coordinating the dinner. And editing the prewedding shoots. And I want to do a B&W shoot for her wedding day too. Hm. Exciting, yes. But that means I am going to be super busy. Ah. Aint complaining if it involves photography. Yaey!

OK la, Ive already stolen 5 mins out of my 8 official hours at work to write this. Till the next post, if I dont update frequently, you know why la. ;p

Monday, March 29, 2010

Another Emo Emo Talk

Give me a pillow. I'm, again, in the emo state and very, very confused and a little depressed.

Dont ask me why and please, dont even attempt to pujuk me. I'm ok and take my word for it. If you persist, I might just get mad.

I just need to speak out, vent out and the only place I can do so is here in my blog because its mine and I dont have to care what others think. Except that this is the WWW means whatever I write is publisized for the world to see. Not good either. So I'm sparing the details but sharing the feeling.

I am feeling like a lost driver in that Berkeley roundabout in Klang (I think that's the name). I'm taking 12 o'clock, but secretly I wish I could go 6 o'clock. I drag the gears and move forward. Its not that 12 o'clock isnt good, its just somehow, I left my heart somewhere along the lines at 6 o'clock and I want to pick it back and start the journey anew. But the roundabout is so blardy damn jam and I'm running out of time so I cant turn back. No, too many negative implications to the cars surrounding me that I absolutely cannot, cannot do this. I must move on, even if the heart is far behind. Perhaps over time, I will realise that I never really dropped it, it was merely in the car boot. Or perhaps I will run out of power, and die a slow death. I dont know, only time will tell.

Can't really work now; the brains just wouldn't operate, the heart, is just feeling sick. Sometimes I wish I was simpler. Or things could go MY way. But alas, no. Life is much more complicated than our imagination and wanting to be carefreee is wishful thinking.

I dont know what else to say, because I am just lost. Perhaps I should consider migrating to somewhere else. Some may say running away does not solve the problem, yes, but at least it alleviates the pain. Out of sight, out of mind.

I need to shoot like crazy. Life can be depressing. Let me out with the camera.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Asian Charlie’s Angels


is called..Chai Lai Angels. Haahahhahahaha.

Bet its porn loaded with super auta actions.

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

Share A Good News

...when the mind is not in a good state. Or while ber-emo. Hormonal or not.

Yes, I got promoted. It's official now. I'm officially a senior executive. Means slightly higher pay and a lot more work and responsibility.

But still, this is good news and I should appreciate it by sharing the news with all my dear readers who are my friends. Though there has been ups and many downs, but in the end, at least, I feel appreciated now. I will strive to work better.

Thanks for the recommendation, Uncle T.