I woke up at 5.30am again. Not that I like waking up early, I just had to force myself to rise on unearthly hours just so that I could reach my office at 7.15am and start my work immediately. The reason is simple, I didnt stay up to work till late the previous night. And I dont think my senior is going to like this at all. She terrifies me sometimes especially when she's been pressured by other superiors. I fear that by not staying till late at night, she would think I am not committed. I fear her so much that I dont feel comfortable telling her anything at all. More so if i've got a meeting to attend or have smthg urgent at home that requires me to leave early (on time actually, I never leave earlier than I should). She's not the type who would keep in her heart if she's not happy with anything- she'll just scold me. It's not a bad thing, really. I appreciate that she expresses to me how she feels and what she expects of me. But at the same time, the appreciativeness comes alongside another feeling called fear. Now, I dont even dare to take leave without her consent!
I never knew that fear is such a powerful motivator at office and I hate this feeling. How on earth did this thing started? I guess its the Asian culture that i was brought up in, or maybe its the stupid the education system. Maybe even the school.
My teachers taught me that the Head Mistress has the highest authority in school, thus you must always be disciplined when she is around. No nonsense. And she's always right. She's got all the power to make or break you, in which most of the time would be the latter. And thou shall not disobey the Great Lady or suffer from unquenchable wrath and the rotan. And then there is the GURU DISIPLIN who would go around spreading the gospel of the Head Mistress coming as a punisher and she being the Chosen prophet, would do anything to make sure you behave yourself. Together with her, all the fallen angels in special blue uniforms and tie (sometimes with a blazer) would march around looking for victims, and will not hesitate to whip their little BLACK BOOK of DEATH at the sight of a slightest mistake you make.
Sounds familiar? I grew up with that kind of mentality. Superiors are to be feared. As well as enforcers. Yes, those days I did manage to escape all the time from all that nonsense but this is not my point. The gist here is, we (or maybe just me) have been instilled with "Fear" to superiors, which I think is not a good thing. Personally, I think instilling 'fear' to gain respect or results (as in my case) is not the right way. But I cant tell the right way either. Perhaps, at this moment, fear is the only way.
Well, at least it works on me. I even fear to blog now coz others might think I am not working, even if its just for a while.
2. In the name of the boss
This one is GREAT. I am the organisor of one of the company's forthnight activity and our CEO had signed up earlier to participate in that. Of course only the organisors know that he is coming along la. Response from other staff was just OK. But, after I emailed out a reminder together with the name list to everyone, guess what? Yeap, suddenly people start having interest in the activity. Looks like the boss' name does boost sales =) You can market anything in the name of the Boss. Whatever their motives are, as long as the activity sells, I dont care!