Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Now, simply changing the target because I couldnt meet it seems like a convenient and expedient way to justufy my non-conformance to the earlier set goal. Well, maybe, and I wont justify on that. But like my sister said, since I was never an avid reader, maybe I should consider a smaller start and not get too ambitious about this whole reading thing. Two months would be a good start and perhaps, after the first half of the year is over, maybe I can consider speeding up my reading a little.
And why I cant seem to finish up my book? The first and undeniable cause: yes, i got a little lazy and distracted with other things, especially now that I have Astro at home and watching tv seems to be just the easiest thing to do when I get home from work, tired from the day's work. The waking hours at night are short, about 3 hours (minus dinner and bathing time), if I dont go out with my friends for dinner. Tell me, how could I cram quality time with family and friends, watching the tv and reading? I've got to make the choice and most of the time, I chose to hang out instead of reading.
Another factor for not finishing my book. I suspect it has to do with the nature of the book itself. If I am reading something from Dan Brown or Stephen King, or series like Fear Street or Sweet Valley (I never read those btw (FS and SV)- I absolutely despise high school teeny stories and kidster horror books), I would probably finish up in a week or so because the book is meant for people to READ through the pages and enjoy the story. Not that it is bad, but if you know me well enough, you would be able to guess that I am not the type of person who reads fictions. Yes, I am NOT reading a fiction. I'm reading a book on self development and this book requires me to read, reflect and respond to the ideas that the author was conveying through his writing. That's 3 course of action as opposed to one only (read) in reading fictions.
So what book is it that I am reading, you may wonder. It's '7 Habits of Highly Effective People' by Stephen Covey. Now before you brush aside this book as just another self-help book, let me tell you this: You have to read this book. I'm only into the 4th chapter (3rd habit) but so far the book has opened my eyes to see my own habits that are holding me back from being effective.
Will review the book when I am done, say end of next month.
Oh yes, I'm starting 'The Purpose Driven Life' all over again, this time I'm reading it the way it was designed to be read: day by day for the next 40 days. Actually, the more I read '7 habits', the more I feel the need to read 'Purpose'. Ironically, i think both books actually complement one another, indirectly. And the more I read both, the more I need to read and study the Bible, to tap the source of all the priciples conveyed by the authors. Only then, I feel, that my reading would bear some fruits in my life.
Anyway, do encourage me to continue reading. I'm gonna make 2007 the year of growth and empowerment!
Monday, January 29, 2007
A closer shot
The other side of the building
*The conversation took place in Cantonese*
Beautician, (B): *talking to mum* Do you want to do eyebrow embroidery? You will look much brighter and more beautiful with darker eyebrows. I’ll design the eyebrow for you for free and you decide for yourself if you want to proceed with the embroidery, which would be semi-permanent…
**Conversation Truncated, let’s go straight to the point*
B: Aunty, your daughter (me, lah) doesn’t look Chinese. Is your husband a Westerner (gwailo)?
Mum, (M): *thought she said tht simply because I responded to all her queries in English* No lah, her father is Hokkien and I am Hakka, that’s why she doesn’t speak any dialect…
B: Oh..but her features doesn’t look Chinese. She looks mix…
Me, (I) : *chuckle*
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
So I'm gonna just wear my futsal shoes, and use joshua's racquet (which I borrowed and never return, hehe) which doesnt even have a cover, let alone a bag, and no balls. Which means I have to use the coach's balls. And keep my clothes, towel and bottle in a plastic bag. How unfashionable can it be?
Btw, did I mention that my sports club is organising subsidized tennis coaching for its members? Of course I've signed up for that. RM10/month is a great bargain. An external coach would cost RM70/session.
I hope I can pick up the game again. Its been ages since i last played the game seriously. Which explains why I couldnt find the racquet anymore.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Plus points for the stall:
1) It's cheap. RM 1.50 for a plate of fried meehoon.
RM 3.30 for Nasi Lemak with chicken curry, sambal, peanuts, anchovies, cucumber and half an egg! Also with some vege.
2) It's got WILD BOAR CURRY!! Tell me, how manu places in KL that sells wild boar curry?
And it's only an additional RM 1.00 for a decent portion of it.
3) it's got lo mai fan (Glutious rice). Do you know how rare is this in the Klang Valley? I almost had to fight for it coz this dish finishes faster than hot cakes in a famine land!
4) The service is fast and foos tastes pretty decent for its price.
I can foresee that I will frequent that stall more often in the future.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
The next time i deal with one, I will not hold back and belasah that person. What, cannot speak properly is it???
I am not against big cars, only this particular one. Driving a big car means he's a big shot lah, is it? Big car means can bully small cars lah? What a dumbo and disrespectful rascal!
I was very pissed with the driver of the big volvo that almost hit me from the left simply because he was too kiasu to slow down and give me way to turn. I gave him the left turn signal early enough for him to prepare himself to slow down of take any other precautionary steps. But instead, he sped up and didnt want to let me turn. I thought, fine lah, i'll make another round. But then he stopped pulak, so i just turned lah. It was dangerous. And all this happened because of some bird brain who refused to give way to another driver for whatever reason he had in his tiny micro-mini brain. If he had any, anyway.
This is KL.
Friday, January 12, 2007
Before any of you start calling me a freaking spendthrift kid, allow me to clarify here that the Astro was FREE and so is the installation. The only thing which I have to pay is the monthly subscribtion bill, of course.
I think the people who will benefit from the subscription the most would be my mum and my sister coz I am out most of the time. But still its a good thing, at least I'll have more options to watch on those lonely days or nights when I dont have any plans with only the tv to entertain me.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
I woke up at 5.30am again. Not that I like waking up early, I just had to force myself to rise on unearthly hours just so that I could reach my office at 7.15am and start my work immediately. The reason is simple, I didnt stay up to work till late the previous night. And I dont think my senior is going to like this at all. She terrifies me sometimes especially when she's been pressured by other superiors. I fear that by not staying till late at night, she would think I am not committed. I fear her so much that I dont feel comfortable telling her anything at all. More so if i've got a meeting to attend or have smthg urgent at home that requires me to leave early (on time actually, I never leave earlier than I should). She's not the type who would keep in her heart if she's not happy with anything- she'll just scold me. It's not a bad thing, really. I appreciate that she expresses to me how she feels and what she expects of me. But at the same time, the appreciativeness comes alongside another feeling called fear. Now, I dont even dare to take leave without her consent!
I never knew that fear is such a powerful motivator at office and I hate this feeling. How on earth did this thing started? I guess its the Asian culture that i was brought up in, or maybe its the stupid the education system. Maybe even the school.
My teachers taught me that the Head Mistress has the highest authority in school, thus you must always be disciplined when she is around. No nonsense. And she's always right. She's got all the power to make or break you, in which most of the time would be the latter. And thou shall not disobey the Great Lady or suffer from unquenchable wrath and the rotan. And then there is the GURU DISIPLIN who would go around spreading the gospel of the Head Mistress coming as a punisher and she being the Chosen prophet, would do anything to make sure you behave yourself. Together with her, all the fallen angels in special blue uniforms and tie (sometimes with a blazer) would march around looking for victims, and will not hesitate to whip their little BLACK BOOK of DEATH at the sight of a slightest mistake you make.
Sounds familiar? I grew up with that kind of mentality. Superiors are to be feared. As well as enforcers. Yes, those days I did manage to escape all the time from all that nonsense but this is not my point. The gist here is, we (or maybe just me) have been instilled with "Fear" to superiors, which I think is not a good thing. Personally, I think instilling 'fear' to gain respect or results (as in my case) is not the right way. But I cant tell the right way either. Perhaps, at this moment, fear is the only way.
Well, at least it works on me. I even fear to blog now coz others might think I am not working, even if its just for a while.
2. In the name of the boss
This one is GREAT. I am the organisor of one of the company's forthnight activity and our CEO had signed up earlier to participate in that. Of course only the organisors know that he is coming along la. Response from other staff was just OK. But, after I emailed out a reminder together with the name list to everyone, guess what? Yeap, suddenly people start having interest in the activity. Looks like the boss' name does boost sales =) You can market anything in the name of the Boss. Whatever their motives are, as long as the activity sells, I dont care!
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Anyway, my traffice prediction was wrong- at 6.45am, cars were already queing at the Surian stretch and the hignway wasnt exactly smooth either. Looks like I've got to leave my apartment at 6.00am in order to get to work at 7.00am when I start working at site later!
Thursday, January 04, 2007
I shall first take a stroll down double-0-six and reflect on the happenings in my life.
1) I graduated. Finally. Refer to "Milestones"
2) I shifted out from my SS2 house to move in with my sister at Damansara. The new place has its pros and cons but overall everything is good.
3) My beloved Nissan Sunny was stolen right in front of my SS2 house, leaving me with so much of heartaches and tears. I remember the incident so vividly- I wanted to send my sister to Pudu when I realised that the car was not at where it should be. I franticaly looked for it and I couldnt find.
The trip to the police station gave me more tears than comfort. I had to deal with sacarstic and lazy cops who were more concerned of 'which handphone to give his 10As nephew'. Talking about "Mesra, Cekap dan Betul". My foot!
4) I finally decided to join a new Life Fellowship group. Refer to "Personal Growth"
1) I finally graduated from university, thus completed the second phase of my life. I was (and still am) glad that i dont have to study anymore. 15 years of formal education makes me wanna vomit when I see academic books. I dont miss exams and I definitely will not miss studying till late at night. But I will miss my friends and the good life that I had as a student.
2) I started my first job in a major construction firm. I am bonded, just in case you haven't heard. So, I'll be stuck with the company for the next 4 years or so.
3) I got a new car to replace the old trusty that was stolen early this year. For the first time in my life I actually bought something expensive and take up a loan for it.
4) Starting this blog was something that I am proud to have acheived thus far. It may not be a top notched 1000 viewer blog but it's still smthg dear to me. And I will not allow anyone to blow my passion for writing and blogging. At all cost.
5) Yes, being a committee of the Kelab Sukan is also smthg that I would like to think of as a minor milestone. It gives me the opportunity to organize events and being at the backstage to see the happenings and negotiations that people dont normally get to see. It's an experience I appreciate a lot as part of my self development and learning process. Perhaps with more exposure I could jump to events. Who knows the future rite?
1) Lots of minor stumbles but no fall so great that I couldnt pick myself again. By God's grace.
1) I cant remember any super 'ups'. Maybe I am too negative in viewing thing in my life that I fail to take notice of the good things that happened to me.
2) I have been struggling with self esteem almost all my life. (Yes, althought I may appear all bubbly and happy-go-lucky and confident and all). But I guess there are some moments when feel a little better about myself when people complement my looks. =)
1) Lots of downs. And mostly caused by either work or my self.
I wouldnt say that my career started with a bang. In fact I shed a lot of tears. I dont want to elaborate much about this.
2) I feel down and sometimes to the point of depression rather easily. I dont remember any particular events but I know there are a few.
1) I dont feel like I've grown much in the past year. Like I am still emotionally weak like how I was in the previous years, and I am still not as knowledable to speak highly intelligent stuff to people. I still havent mastered any skill and I still cant speak any chinese dialect.
2) Spriritual growth wise, I have been slacking in my walk with God. I dont remember when and how I got a little disinterested in the things of God, maybe when I started work and was feeling down for a long time. Perhaps I got too contented with the environment and the people around me that I began to slack and take LF and church for granted. But I guess it's God's love for me that I am actually still believing in Him, and trusting Him to walk with me even in the midst of the darkness and desertland. Sometimes, you have to fall, crawl and thirst so that you can learn to depend on God and not yourself. And my state of self-induced depression that was born out of my own inferiority complex will never end until I really grasp the fact that I am worthy and have been made 'fearfully and wonderfully' by the Creator Himself. And until then, I will rise and fall, being sad all over and God will have to pick me up over and over again.
3) I have learnt to cook and currently still in the learning process. I love cooking but the only hinderance is my lack of self motivation (in simple terms: lazy)
Well, I've whipped good dishes and the dish of the year would be the Crab Curry! Yeah, I can cook crab too!
Memory lane is short but vital in order to plan for the future and for goal setting this year. In summary, the 2006 was very much unplanned and messy, with almost nothing to be proud of.
I dont want 2007 to be the extended version of 2006. So I am setting goals for myself and a checklist for things hoped for and targets I hope to acheive throughout the year. I will make a masterplan and method statements to acheive my visions.
And all that will start with the transformation of my mind. I must start to think differently.
Will write more when I am ready to share my thoughts with u all.